A Delicate Situation
I jumped when Dr. Avery barked, “Well, Dorian. I’m waiting.” I looked around
nervously as everyone stared at me.
Jade took my arm and whispered softly, “Don’t Dorian.” I started to rise, but she
pulled me back down.
“I’m waiting!” Dr. Avery shouted loudly.
On my right, Jerry asked, “What’s going on?”
I started to rise again, but Seth stood and approached Dr. Avery. “He doesn’t want
to go with you, Sir.”
“Young Man,” Dr. Avery spat angrily, “I don’t think this is any of your business.”
Cameron hurried over and stood between them. “I don’t understand why you’re
asking Dorian to leave.” He looked over at me with a puzzled look on his face.
Dr. Avery ignored him and ordered, “Dorian, come with me!”
“No, Sir,” I heard myself respond timidly. “I’d rather stay.” His eyes narrowed as he
looked at me and then at the others. Without saying anything, he turned and left
the room. Seth and Cameron approached and stood before me.
“Are you all right?” Seth asked worriedly. Jerry protectively put his hand on my
“I think so,” I replied. My voice trembled; and if Jade wasn’t holding my hand, I
would have been shaking violently. Several emotions were surging through me. I
was embarrassed because everyone in the room was staring at me, and I was angry
with Dr. Avery for insisting that I leave the meeting. I was certain that he was on
the phone informing my father of my rebellious behavior.
Cameron looked down at me. “Would someone tell me what’s going on? I’ve never
seen Dr. Avery so upset.” I remained silent for fear that if I tried to talk, I would
become too emotional.
Jade leaned over and whispered in my ear. “Perhaps you should tell him, Dorian. He
might be able to protect you. That is one of the reasons we’re here.”
I looked at Jade pleadingly, “I can’t. You do it.”
She asked worriedly, “Are you sure?” I nodded my head as she squeezed my hand
Seth sat down and Cameron returned to his place in the middle of the circle. Jade
slowly rose and looked around at the group who were eagerly awaiting an
explanation. There was a muted gasp when she announced, “Dorian’s last name is
Gale. His father is Senator Gale who is now running for vice president of the United
States. Dorian’s presence here is a threat to his father’s political ambitions.” She sat
down, gripped my hand and asked me if I was all right.
“Thanks,” I replied. The room was silent for several minutes as everyone stared at
“Fuck me!” Jerry hissed under his breath.
Cameron asked for everyone’s attention. He then proceeded to assure me that who
I was would have no influence within the group. I was a member like everyone else,
and that my father’s position would not affect anything that the group decided to
do. He assured me he would talk to Dr. Avery about my involvement. He explained
that Dr. Avery was very supportive of having a gay organization on the campus,
and he didn’t see how my participation could possibly be a problem.
I wanted to tell him that he didn’t know my father and the influence he wielded. I
was now afraid that with one phone call to Dr. Avery, Campus Pride could be
The remainder of the meeting was spent discussing the election of officers in two
weeks, and what everyone thought should be the objectives of the Campus Pride.
Cameron cited several campus police reports of harassment of students last year
because of their sexual orientation. He thought that the group should focus on
making the student body more aware of the problems that existed. The guy with
the pink striped hair argued that we should host a dance during homecoming
weekend. Everyone laughed when he said he had a new blue dress he was dying to
When the meeting was adjourned, Cameron approached me as I stood with Jade,
Seth, Sydney, Amanda and Jerry. “I want to assure you, Dorian, that I will do
everything I can to insure that you maintain your membership with College Pride.
I’ll schedule a meeting with Dr. Avery first thing in the morning.”
“It won’t matter,” I replied worriedly. “If my father doesn’t want me participating,
then I probably won’t be able to.”
“Bullshit,” spat Jerry. “You’re a man now. He can’t tell you what you can do.”
I looked up worriedly at him. “You don’t realize how powerful my father is. If he
wants me to come home, he’ll find a way to do it.”
“He’ll have to come through me first,” Seth sneered angrily. “I don’t give a shit who
I giggled when Jerry puffed out his chest and fisted Seth’s hand. “Me, too.”
“Okay,” laughed Cameron. “You two studs calm down. I don’t think we have to
make physical threats. The purpose of Campus Pride is to stop violence, not create
it.” He looked somberly at Seth and Jerry. “Let me talk to Dr. Avery first. Then we’ll
go from there.” He shook everyone’s hand and thanked us for attending the first
meeting. He said he hoped we would return next Tuesday. He told Seth he was very
glad that he and Sydney had attended, and he hoped that he would consider being
an officer. Seth told him he’d consider it, and then he left.
Jerry asked, “What are you guys going to do now?”
“I’ve got an exam tomorrow in physics,” Seth replied. “I’m going over to the library
to study.” He looked over at Sydney. “You want to come with me?” Sydney nodded
“So much for studying,” Jade laughed as Sydney’s face reddened.
“Let’s go,” Seth said as he grabbed Sydney’s hand and pulled her away.
“Don’t forget,” Jade hollered out. “You’re going to the library to study.” We laughed
when Seth lifted his hand and flipped her off.
Jerry looked down and asked, “What about you, Dorian?”
I shrugged my shoulders. “I don‘t know. I guess I’ll just go back to my room and
“Nonsense,” replied Jade. She looked over at Amanda. “How about going to get a
“I’m game,” responded Amanda.
“Me, too,” said Jerry. He looked at me. “Dorian, You in?”
I shrugged my shoulders. “Sure, I guess.”
“Come on,” Jade reached down and grabbed my hand as she reached over and took
Amanda’s in her other. “It will be fun.” Jerry put his arm around my back as we
walked out of the room.
Amanda suggested that we eat at the Little Italy Pizza Parlor. It was across campus,
and it took us about thirty minutes to get there. Jerry had a car, but Jade and
Amanda said they would rather walk. I was surprised when they held hands as we
headed to the restaurant. Jerry reached for mine once, but I pulled it away and gave
him a warning glare. I wasn’t sure if Dr. Avery and my father were having someone
trail me to observe my activities. If Cameron hadn’t already said that he had invited
Dr. Avery to address the group, then I would have assumed he was there only
because I attended.
The pizza parlor was crowded and loud as we entered. We had to wait twenty
minutes for a table. We were finally seated at a booth at the front of the restaurant.
We decided we would get an order of breadsticks and share the largest pizza they
had. Half was the deluxe with everything but anchovies. Jade said she was watching
what she ate because she wanted to participate in basketball, so the other half
contained just cheese.
As we waited for our order, Amanda and Jerry wanted to know more about my life,
but I only gave them the short version. I told them that since my father had been a
politician my entire life, then my life had been very guarded. I tried to avoid
mentioning that Dad was extremely rich, but Jade told them about Carlton, my
“Fuck me,” Jerry laughed. “You got your own chauffer?”
“Actually, he’s my father’s,” I replied. I rolled my eyes when he enthusiastically
asked me if he could ride in it sometime.
“Now you,” I said in an attempt to change the subject.
He shrugged his shoulders. “Not much to tell,” he responded. “I’m the black sheep
of the family. I came out to my parents when I was fourteen.” He laughed nervously.
“That went over well.”
Jade asked, “What happened?” I could tell by the expression on his face that the
experience must have been heart wrenching.
“Dad had a shit fit,” he replied. “He’s a deacon in a large church, so I’ve had to listen
for the past eight years how I’m going to spend eternity in hell.” He laughed
nervously again. “I think I’ve been there since I told him.”
Amanda asked, “What about your mother?”
“She does what Dad tells her to do,” he replied. “You know, the devoted wife thing.”
“Must have been rough,” Jade responded sorrowfully.
Jerry shrugged his shoulders. “Not really. They’ve pretty much left me alone. Of
course, I didn’t have much of a social life, though. I was the good son, you know.
Went to school, made good grades, and then got the hell out of their house.
Coming here has been a retreat.” He looked over at me and smiled warmly.
“I think it’s just gotten better.”
The waitress brought the pizza and breadsticks to the table, and we started to eat.
Jade gave a brief description about her background. I guess she wanted Amanda to
know a little about her. I had heard it before, so I spent most of the time looking
around the room and watching other people as they dined. I noticed a table toward
the back with four guys who appeared to be gay. At a table a few feet away were
seated two athletic looking guys with their dates. They would whisper something to
each other, and then look over at the table with the four guys and laugh.
I was startled from my reverie when Jade asked, “Did you hear what Amanda asked
“What?” Jade giggled and rolled her eyes.
“She wants to know if we want to go back to her apartment after we eat?”
Jerry announced excitedly. “I’m in!”
I was getting tired, and it was after eleven. However, I knew Jade wouldn’t take no
for an answer. “I guess,” I yawned. “But I can’t stay long.”
The waitress brought the check and placed it on the table in front of us. Amanda
reached for it, but I snatched it from her hands. “My treat,” I announced.
“We can pay our share,” Amanda insisted, and Jade agreed.
“Okay,” I laughed, “It’s my father’s treat.” I pulled out a credit card. “He told me to
use it anytime I wanted, so I guess I will.”
Jade started laughing, “He’d die if he knew he was buying dinner for four gay
“Then we should have gone to a steak house,” I replied. “The next time we will.”
We laughed when Jerry responded enthusiastically, “I’m in!”
It took about twenty minutes to walk to Amanda’s apartment. Fortunately, it was in
the direction of my dorm, so it wouldn’t take Jade and I long to walk back. It was a
typical college apartment- small and cramped. There was a room no bigger than my
bedroom at home that comprised of the living room and dining area. Clothes were
cluttered around the room, and shoes were strewn all over the floor. A small
kitchenette was to the left, and a narrow hallway that looked like it led to two
bedrooms was on the right.
“Sorry for the mess,” Amanda apologized as she removed clothes from a blue
loveseat and tossed them aside. She then removed a potato chip bag and a pair of
dirty socks from a recliner and tossed them on the floor. “My roomie isn’t the
neatest person in the world.”
“You have one of those also?” I laughed.
Jade walked over and picked up a basketball jersey that had Amanda’s last name
printed on the back. “Wait a minute,” she giggled. “Messy roommate? This looks like
Amanda snatched the jersey from Jade’s hand. “Okay,” she laughed. “I confess. I’m
not the neatest person in the world, either.” She sat on the loveseat, patted the
seat and asked Jade to join her. Jerry sat in the recliner, and I looked around the
room to see if there was any place for me to sit. Seeing none, I sat on the floor in
front of Jerry.
We sat around talking for about twenty minutes about the classes we were taking.
It worried me when Jerry implied that he thought most freshmen teachers’ main
objective was to fail freshmen. “Weed out the weak,” as he put it.
I got nervous when Amanda rose and walked over and turned off the overhead
light. Only a small light from the kitchen illuminated the room. “There,” she said as
she sat back down. “That’s better.” A minute later, she leaned over and started to
kiss Jade passionately.
I bristled when Jerry leaned over and started rubbing my shoulders. I was becoming
nervous that he thought that the night might end in sex. It was becoming obvious
that was the girls’ intention. I was angry at Jade because she had put me in such a
precarious situation. She could at least have walked me back to the dorm and then
returned to Amanda’s apartment.
Amanda stood, put her hand out and pulled Jade from the loveseat. “Let’s go to my
room,” she said. I watched as they walked down the narrow hall and into a bedroom
on the right.
I jumped when Jerry slid from the chair and sat down beside me on the floor. Before
I knew what was happening, he had pushed me on my back, straddled me and was
trying to ram his tongue into my mouth.
“Get off me,” I pleaded. Since he was much larger than me, I was struggling to
He sat up, but remained positioned over my body. “What’s the matter, Baby? Don’t
you want this?”
“No,” I started to cry. “I wasn’t planning on this to happen.”
“But it did,” he said lustily as he lay across my chest and started to kiss me. “I want
you so bad.” He reached his hand under his body in an attempt to grab my crotch.
“Don’t!” I cried. When he squeezed my limp cock, I reached my hand out and
slapped him. “Stop it!”
He sat up and balled his fist. I closed my eyes and waited for the impact of his hand,
but he didn’t hit me. Instead, he rose and sat down in the chair. He placed his head
in his hands and muttered, “I’m sorry.”
I quickly got up and headed for the door. “Me, too,” I replied as I opened the door
and walked into the brisk, cool night.
Sydney and I were taking notes as Dr. Petry, our English 101 professor, droned on
about transitive and intransitive verbs. I was having trouble staying awake. Besides
Travis’s loud snoring that kept me awake, I was also bothered about what
happened the night before in Amanda’s apartment.
I couldn’t understand why Jerry assumed I would just want to freely have sex with
him. When he slid off the chair and sat beside me, I think he actually thought I
would willingly make out with him and have sex. He didn’t even ask me if I was
interested, he just assumed I would play along.
Maybe that is what ordinarily happens on a college campus, but I wasn’t prepared
for it. As much as I hate to admit it, I am still a virgin. I wanted my first time to be
something more than just a non-committal fling on the floor of someone’s
apartment. Up until that time, I had enjoyed being with Jerry. He was attractive and
outgoing. I enjoyed the wonderful sense of humor he had displayed all evening.
However, engaging in sex with him had never occurred to me.
I was also upset with Jade. I was angry at her for leaving me alone in a stranger’s
apartment with someone I had just met. Obviously, she had no problem jumping
into bed with someone she had just met. She could at least have spoken to me
alone and asked me what I wanted to do. Instead, she just left with Amanda to go
to her bedroom without even looking at me to see if I objected.
The entire evening had been a disaster. I went to the meeting hoping to make new
friends. Instead, I was embarrassed by Dr. Avery in front of the entire group. I was
hoping that my identity could be protected, and I could enjoy my life without living
in the shadows of my father’s political position. It was becoming increasing more
difficult to protect who I was. Travis and my dorm mates knew. Now, the members
of Campus Pride were aware of it. I was sure my college professors knew who I was.
None of them said anything, but I could tell by the way most of them greeted me
when I entered the room that they knew I was Senator Gale’s son. I was a status
symbol to them. They could brag to their colleagues and friends about me. It
happened to me in high school, so I know it was occurring in my college classes.
And since Dr. Avery had personally enrolled me in their class, it added to the
Jade walked into class twenty minutes late. She seemed embarrassed as she quickly
glanced back at me. She approached Dr. Petry and handed him a note. He read it,
nodded and told Jade to take a seat. She slowly made her way back to her seat
As she sat down, she quickly looked over at me and mouthed, “I’m sorry.” I
frowned and turned my head. Even though she had now become one of my best
friends, I still felt I was entitled to be angry with her.
Dr. Petry finished lecturing, and the class groaned when he told us we had to go to
his webpage and complete a lesson that would be due on Friday. It was the third
one he had assigned. If it were like the others, I would be spending a lot of time in
I tried to hurry from the classroom, but Jade grabbed my arm as soon as we walked
out into the hallway. “Leave me alone, Jade,” I muttered angrily.
“Dorian,” she pleaded. “I’m really sorry.”
“What’s the matter?” Sydney asked as she walked up.
“What’s the matter?” I turned and scowled at Jade. “My supposedly best friend left
me alone last night in an apartment with some guy who wanted to get into my
pants while she went to Amanda’s bedroom and had sex.”
Sydney gasped, “What!” She looked over with an astonished look at Jade. “You
“It’s not as bad as it sounds,” insisted Jade. “He was with Jerry. You met him. He’s
a nice guy.”
“Yeah,” I spat, “That’s exactly what I thought when he shoved his tongue down my
“What!” Sydney shrieked excitedly. She then turned to Jade. “What in the hell
happened last night?”
We continued to walk from the building before other students heard our
conversation. I walked quickly in front of them hoping that I could get away.
However, Jade ran up beside me and grabbed my arm.
She looked down and said angrily, “Stop acting like a spoiled, little brat.”
“What!” I shouted. “Me?”
“Yes, you,” she replied. “Grow up, Dorian. We’re not in middle school anymore. I’m
nineteen years old, and if I want to have sex with someone, I will.”
“Well,” I pouted. “You didn’t have to leave me alone by myself.”
She started giggling. “I thought I was doing you a favor.”
“Yeah,” she replied. “Jerry is kind of hot. I thought you’d like being left alone with
“Well,” I huffed. “I didn’t.”
Sydney stepped between us. “Would someone please tell me what is going on.”
Jade explained how we went back to Amanda’s apartment after leaving the pizza
place. She said that she and Amanda really hit it off; and as they sat on the
loveseat, Amanda whispered in her ear that she wanted Jade to go to her bedroom.
I rolled my eyes when she told Sydney how close Jerry and I seemed to be getting
the entire evening, so she thought it would give me a chance to get to ‘know’ him
“Well, I didn’t want to get to ‘know’ him better,” I remarked emphatically.
Jade asked, “Why? It’s just sex.”
“Because,” I replied sadly. I turned and started to walk away. Jade reached out and
grabbed my arm.
“Wait, Dorian.” She looked deeply into my eyes. “You’re afraid to have sex.”
I tried to pull away. “Leave me alone, Jade.” Sydney put her arm around my back
and patted it.
“It’s okay, Dorian,” she said softly. “Everyone gets nervous the first time.”
“I’m not nervous,” I insisted emphatically. “I’m... I’m... saving myself.”
There was a ten-second silence until Jade burst out laughing. “Saving yourself!
Jesus, Dorian, that is so sophomoric.”
“Fuck you, Jade,” I replied angrily. I tried to walk away, but Jade grabbed my arm
and stopped me.
“Okay,” she said. “I’m sorry. But come on, Dorian. We’re in college now. No rents
telling us what to do. This should be the time we’re discovering ourselves.”
“You could at least wait until your junior year to ‘discover yourself’,” I said as I put
up my hands and made a quotation mark.
“I’d be twenty-one then!” Jade shrieked. “Besides, I’ve been ‘discovering’ myself
since I had my first girlfriend at thirteen.”
“God, Jade,” I hissed. “Too much information.” Sydney snickered off to my right.
Jade asked, “Don’t you ever think about sex?” My face started to redden.
“Of course,” I replied nervously. “But I don’t want to jump into bed with the first
guy who looks at me.”
I was surprised when she stated, “But Jerry is really into you. He’s really sorry he
tried to force you to do something you weren’t ready to do.”
“What?” I assumed he would be mad and never want to speak to me again after the
way I had acted.
“No really,” Jade insisted. “He was still waiting out in the living room when I got
ready to leave. He walked me back to the dorm. He was worried he fucked up and
you wouldn’t want to see him again.”
“Well, I don’t,” I replied.
Jade started to giggle. “Liar,” she smiled. “You know you do. He’s cute.”
Sydney giggled when my face started to redden. “You do like him!” she shrieked.
“No, I don’t,” I insisted as I started to walk away. They ran up and walked beside me.
“It’s okay to be afraid,” Sydney remarked as she reached down and took my right
hand. Jade held my left hand. “When the time’s right, you’ll know.”
I looked up at Jade and asked, “So he wants to see me again?”
She smiled and nodded.
Sydney suggested that we go get something to eat, but it was too early for lunch.
“I need to go back to the room and get my sociology book,” I informed them. “Class
isn’t until one. Why don’t we meet up at noon for lunch?” We agreed to meet at a
student cafeteria close to the building where our class was located.
“See you then.” I waved as I began to walk back to the dorm. Fortunately, Travis
wasn’t in the room when I left earlier. I guess he had finally decided to attend a
class. In fact, the entire floor was quiet as I walked down the hallway.
When I unlocked my door and entered the room, I stopped suddenly. Dr. Avery was
sitting at my desk. He turned and looked angrily at me.
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