Chapter 25
I shrugged my shoulders and replied, “Yeah, sure.” I didn’t want to seem too anxious to talk. Curtis
seemed like the kind of guy who wanted to control the conversation. I knew he would speak only when he
wanted.

He reached for the remote control and turned the channel to ESPN. I wanted to tell him I was watching a
movie, but didn’t. We watched a college basketball game for several minutes before he finally spoke.

“What you saw last week ain’t what you think,” he muttered as he continued to watch the television.

“You already told me that,” I replied without looking over. “You’re not gay.”

“Right,” he nodded. Several more minutes went by in silence.

Finally, I got tired of the game we were playing, so I become more direct. “So, you’re saying you’re
completely straight?” I couldn’t understand how a guy could have sex with another guy and still consider
himself straight.

It surprised me when he shrugged his shoulders and replied, “I don’t know.”

His response piqued my curiosity. It was the first time he might be admitting he was gay. “So what’s that
mean?” I asked. “You’re either gay or straight.”

I looked over and saw a confused look on his face as he thought about my statement. He rested his head
on the sofa and sighed. Then he asked, “Can you maybe be a little of both?”

I asked, “You mean like bisexual?”

He sat forward, put his head in his hands and mumbled softly, “I don’t know what the fuck I mean
anymore.” He started rubbing his head. “I got all this stupid shit going on inside my head anymore.”

“What kind of shit?”

“I don’t know,” he replied as he continued to rub his hands over his head. “Shit, shit.”

I sat up and looked over at him. It seemed like we were finally getting somewhere. “You mean like sex
shit?”

“Yeah, yeah,” he replied angrily, “Like sex shit.”

“So you’re afraid you’re gay?”

“I don’t know,” he responded. “Maybe.” He sat up and stared at me. “I mean I like what me and Pip do. I
mean, we’ve been doing it for so long, it just seems okay. You know what I mean?”

“Yeah,” I replied. “I think.”

“But then some of the times,” he continued, “I think about girls, too.”

“So you like fucking girls?” I figured since he was talking openly, I might as well talk openly as well.

“Yeah,” he replied. “Well, I’ve thought about it.”

His comment surprised me. By the way he acted, I had assumed that he already had experience with a
girl. “You’ve never had sex with a girl?”

His face reddened, and he admitted, “Well, technically, no.” Then he added excitedly, “But I’ve made it to
second base, though.”

“Second base?”

“Yeah,” he replied excitedly. “Monica let me feel her tits once when we were at the theater a couple of
months ago.”

“Did you get excited?”

“Hell yeah, Man.” He reached down and rearranged his thickening cock. As much as I wanted, I tried not to
look down. I didn’t want him to think I wanted to have sex with him. “I got this enormous boner. I even
got Monica to feel it.” He started laughing. “Man, when I got home I had to take a shower and jerk off.”

I asked, “So you could fuck a girl if you had to?”

He sat back and shook his head. His excitement disappeared. “I dunno,” he admitted. “I mean, I think I
can, but I’m scared.” He sat up and looked at me.   “I mean, what if I try,  and I can’t get it up?”

I laughed, took a chance and looked down at the bulge in his pants. “You don’t seem to have a problem
talking about it.”

His face reddened, and he said, “Yeah, well talking about it and doing it is two different things. With Pip, we
just do it and have fun.” He wrinkled his face and added, “A girl might expect more.”

I thought a minute and then suggested, “Maybe you’re not gay, like you said. Maybe it’s just something
you and Pip do, and it don’t mean too much.” I then asked, “Have you messed around with any other
guys?”

I could tell by the look that came over his face that he had. He sat back and rested his head on the sofa.
Finally, he sat up and faced me. “You swear to God that you won’t tell anyone what I’m about to say?”

“Yeah, sure,” I replied. “I told you, you can trust me.”

“Okay.” He sat back and didn’t say anything for a minute. Finally, he said, “Me and Mike used to have a
thing going on.”

I didn’t want to sound too surprised. “You and Mike?”

“Yeah,” he said. “About two years ago.”

“Do you still have sex with him?” That would answer many of the questions I had about Mike’s attitude
toward me.

“No, Man,” he replied as he shook his head “He came out to everyone and started acting too gay. If we still
messed around, everyone would think I was gay, too.”

“But, you’re still friends?”

“Yeah,” he replied, “But I keep my distance. You know what I mean?” I don’t think he meant it, but I was
insulted when he added, “It would be like me hanging out with you. Everyone would think I was gay.”

I rested my head on the sofa and muttered, “Yeah, thanks a lot.”

He scooted nearer to me. “No, I didn’t mean it like that,” he said excitedly. “I mean you’re a really cool
guy and all. If you weren’t gay, we could probably be good friends.”

I rolled my eyes and said sarcastically, “Thanks.”

“Oh, Man,” he moaned. “I’m really fucking up here. Ain’t I?”

“Yeah,” I replied. “Just a little bit.”

“Okay,” he said as he scooted nearer to me. “I mean, you’re being really cool and all. And you’re taking
the time to help me.” He gently touched my arm. “I mean, you’re helping me get this shit in my head
straightened out.” He gripped my arm. “I’m really sorry. Okay? I’m just all confused right now.”

“It’s okay,” I assured him. “I kind of figured you didn’t like me because I’m gay.”

“Naw, naw,” he said excitedly as he gripped my arm again. “I’m cool with you being gay and all.”

“But you don’t want to have anything to do with me because I am.” I stared into his eyes. “Right?”

He sat back and moaned, “Oh, Man. I am fucked up. You see a guy sucking my dick, and then I tell you I
don’t want to be around you because you’re gay.” He shook his head. “How sick is that?”

I laughed and replied, “Pretty fucking sick.”

He sat back and our arms touched. “You know, you’re pretty fucking cool,” he said as he elbowed me.

He laughed when I elbowed him back and said, “You’re a douche.”

“I’ve been called worse,” he laughed.

“I’m sure you have,” I replied as I elbowed him. We sat back and watched a replay of a foul on the
television.

When the game started again, I asked, “So what are you going to do?”

“I dunno,” he shrugged. “I guess I gotta start dealing with the fact I might be bisexual.” He looked over,
giggled and added, “I gotta fuck a girl first to find out.”

I laughed and said, “Just don’t tell me when you do.”

“I won’t.” He pulled his cell phone from his sweats. “I’ll show you pictures.”

“Don’t do me any favors,” I laughed.

“Hell,” he replied. “You already seen me getting it on with a dude. Might as well see me with a girl.” He
reached down and rearranged the bulge in his sweats.

My face reddened as I looked down at his crotch. “You’ve definitely got something to work with.”

He wiggled his eyebrows. “Well, maybe me and you can get into something sometime.”

“Thanks,” I replied. “But I’m kind of with someone right now.”

“Shade?”

“Yeah.”

“You in love with him?”

“Yeah,” I said as I looked at him. “I’m in love with him.”

He smiled and said, “He’s a lucky dude, Man.” Curtis rose from the sofa and stood before me. “I really
appreciate the talk. I was about to lose my mind.”

“It’s okay,” I replied.

“I mean it, Casey.” He held out his fist, and we bumped fists. “You’re my main man, Okay? If I got a
problem, I’m going to come to you. Bet?”

“Bet,” I replied as we bumped fists again. He then turned and bounded up the steps to his bedroom.

I was surprised Monday morning as we were getting into Rodney’s car to go to school. On the way out of
the house, Curtis asked me if I wanted to ride shotgun, and he would ride in the back with Lane.

“Naw,” I said. “I’m good.” He asked me if I was sure, and I nodded my head. He then got into the front
with Rodney.

Rodney still seemed upset with his brother. When they didn’t talk like they normally do in the morning,
then I knew that Curtis had asked me to sit in the front because he was still afraid of Rodney. I would have
liked to have been a fly on the wall in their bedroom. I’m sure Rodney had a few things to say about Curtis
drinking on Saturday.

In my fifth period Spanish class, students came into class talking excitedly about a fight in the hallway. As I
eavesdropped, I heard Curtis and Mike’s name mentioned. My heart stopped when someone said Shade’s
name. I wanted to leave class and go find Shade to see if he was all right, but Mr. Vega gave us a test, and
I was afraid to miss it. Besides, I wouldn’t know where to find him since I didn’t know where Shade was
fifth period.

Students were still talking about the fight in my next class, but I was relieved when I heard that only Curtis
and Mike were involved, and not Shade. It was about halfway through class when a student entered and
told the teacher that I was being summoned to the office. After nervously gathering my books, I rushed to
the office. I was afraid that something had happened to Shade. When I got there, Rodney and Lane were
waiting for me.

Rodney seemed worried, and Lane was holding his hand. “What’s happened?”

Rodney informed me, “We gotta go to the hospital.” I looked at Lane and he appeared as if he was ready
to burst into tears. The first thing I thought about was Shade.

I asked excitedly, “Has Shade been hurt?”

“No,” replied Rodney. “He’s okay. We gotta go to the nurse’s office and get Curtis and take him to the
hospital.”

“What happened to him?”

Rodney shook his head. “He broke his hand.”

“Broke his hand? How?”

Rodney grabbed me by my arm. “We’ll talk about it later. I already signed you out.” He pulled me from the
office, and we headed to the nurse’s office. Lane held my hand and skipped beside me as we followed
Rodney down the hallway.

When we entered, Curtis was sitting in a chair. He looked up quickly, and then he hung his head. He was
holding an ice pack on his hand.

Rodney sat beside him and said, “Let me see.” When Curtis removed the ice pack, I could see that his hand
was bruised and swollen.

Rodney gave a low whistle and said, “That must hurt like a son of a bitch.”

Curtis reapplied the ice pack and muttered, “Tell me.”

We looked up when the door opened and Shade came barging in. He looked down at Curtis and asked him
if he was okay. Curtis nodded and held up his hand and showed it to him.

I was confused because I had no idea what was happening. I didn’t understand how Shade knew that  
Curtis was hurt. I stood and asked, “What is going on?”

Just then, the nurse appeared and asked Rodney his age. When he told her he was eighteen, she said she
could release Curtis to his care. He had to fill out a form, and he assured her that he would take Curtis
immediately to the hospital.

On the way out, Shade told me to wait for him while he signed out of school. He said he wanted to go with
us to the hospital. I told Rodney to go ahead without me, and that I would ride with Shade.

I waited until we got into Shade’s car before asking him how Curtis had broken his hand. Through the
rumors I’d heard, I knew that he was somehow involved. I was glad that he was not harmed.

On the way to the hospital, he explained what happened. He said when he was walking to his fourth period
class, he saw Curtis coming out of his classroom. He said he was surprised because Curtis started walking
beside him and talking to him.

I asked, “What did he say?”

“Nothing really,” replied Shade. “He was just asking me how my classes were going. Things like that.”

He went on to explain that as they walked down the hall, Mike approached them. He said Mike started
taunting Curtis, and he asked Curtis if he found a new boyfriend. He said Curtis told him to “shut up.” Mike
replied, “Make me.”

Mike responded by looking at me and saying, “Naw. You’d probably rather make it with your boyfriend.” He
said Curtis balled his fist, and he thought he was going to hit Mike in the face.

“Mike thought so too,” he said. “He closed his eyes and waited for the punch.”

I asked, “Is that how he broke his hand?”

“No,” replied Shade. “He hit the locker behind Mike.”

“So he didn’t hit Mike?”

“No,” said Shade. “He broke his hand when he hit the locker. You should have seen Mike. He hauled ass
down the hall. I think he thought Curtis would hit him next.”

“So they didn’t really fight?”

“No,” he said. “By the time anyone realized that a fight was happening, it was over.” I was relieved
because I was afraid that Curtis might be suspended if he was involved in a fight. According to Rodney, he
was already failing a couple of classes. A ten-day suspension for fighting would really hurt him.

When we arrived at the hospital, Shade called Rodney and he said they were in the emergency waiting
room. Rodney and Lane were sitting waiting for us when we arrived. I sat across from them and asked if
Curtis was all right.

“They’re patching him up,” he said. “Mom and Randy are on their way.” He looked at the clock on the wall.
“They should be here any minute.” He looked over at Shade and asked if he knew how his brother broke
his hand. Like me, he had heard rumors about the fight. Shade told him the same story he told me.

Mike is a bastard,” he hissed when Shade finished. “Someone is going to beat the shit out of him someday.”
He rubbed his hands together and said, “It might just be me.”

Lane got excited and said, “Mommy won’t like it if you get into a fight with Mike.”

Rodney laughed and pulled Lane into a hug. “I won’t fight him, Little Brother.” Lane giggled when his
brother added, “I don’t want to get shit all over my hands.”

We waited about a half hour before my father arrived. He was upset, but his attitude for most things seems
to be, “Boys will be boys.” He didn’t think it was unusual for friends to have arguments occasionally. He
seemed more concerned that it could hurt Curtis’s chance to play first base since baseball season was just
beginning.

Karen, on the other hand, was livid. This incident seemed to be the final straw for her. As soon as she
arrived, she said very little. Rodney tried to explain what had happened, but her reply was, “I don’t care
what happened. He should have known better.”

She approached the elderly attendant behind the waiting room desk and demanded to see Curtis. When my
father said he would go back with her, she told him to stay in the waiting room. She kissed his cheek and
said, “I don’t think you want to hear what I’m going to say.”

In a way, I felt sorry for Curtis. From what Shade had told me, Curtis really did try to avoid a fight in
school with Mike. I had been one of Mike’s victims. I knew how cruel he could be. If he had confronted
Shade and me in the hallway, I probably would have fought with him. I was determined that he would
never again get the upper hand as he did once before. Besides, I would do anything to protect Shade-even
if it meant getting my ass kicked.

“Christ,” muttered my father after Karen after stormed out of the waiting room. “I’ve never seen her so
mad.” He looked over at Rodney and said with a grin, “You better go down to the pharmacy.”

Rodney gave him a puzzled look and asked, “Why?”

He replied, “Because when your mother gets through ripping him a new one,   he’s going to need a lot of
gauze.” Lane started giggling uncontrollably.

We sat around for two hours before Karen finally emerged from the twin doors that led back to the
emergency rooms. She approached and announced sternly, “He’ll be out in about ten minutes.”

Rodney asked, “Is he okay?”

Karen glared at him and said, “He broke three fingers and did considerable damage to his wrist.”

She didn’t find it funny when Lane giggled and asked, “How’s his butt?” My father grabbed Lane by the
shoulder and led him away. I could tell they were laughing as they walked to the other side of the room.

Curtis emerged minutes later. He held his head down and didn’t make eye contact with anyone. He had a
cast on his hand. It appeared to go halfway up his arm, but it was hard to tell because he was wearing a
coat. When Rodney asked if he was all right, he nodded but didn’t say anything.

When we got outside, Curtis started to get in Rodney’s car, but Karen told him to ride with her. Lane
jumped into Randy’s SUV.

Rodney asked, “You riding with me?” I glanced over at Shade.

Shade looked at his watch and said, “I really should get back to school. Megan is still rehearsing.”

I asked, “You want me to go with you?”

“No,” he replied. “You should probably be with your family now.” Rodney waited while I walked Shade over
to his car. I wanted to kiss him, but a family came out of the entrance and got into a nearby car.

“I’ll see you tomorrow, then,” I said as I squeezed hand. He nodded, got in his car and drove off.

I got into Rodney’s car, and he pulled off. As we drove home, he talked about what happened. He said
worriedly, “Coach Wentworth is going to shit bricks when he finds out Curtis won’t be able to play baseball.”

I wanted to tell him that Curtis has more problems to worry about other than baseball, but I simply agreed
with him and stared out the window as we headed home.

                         
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