Chapter 16
Karen was disappointed when Lane and I didn’t eat much of the meat loaf she had prepared for dinner.
However, she found it amusing when Lane told her about the apple pie and ice cream he had devoured at
the diner.

“Mrs. Shade sounds like a wonderful mother,” she said after Lane finished telling her how good the pie was.

“She’s not as good as you, Mommy,” replied Lane. He then gave her an impish grin and added, “But she
may be if you don’t give me apple pie and ice cream.”

Karen laughed and said, “Then I guess I better go to the grocery tomorrow. I don’t want to lose my little

It surprised me when Lane responded rudely, “I’m not a little boy anymore.”

My father admonished him, “Lane, remember your manners.”

Karen smiled at my father, and then said, “Of course, Dear. You’re not a little boy anymore.” She held out
her arms, and Lane stood and walked over to her. She hugged him tightly and said softly, “No matter how
big you get, you’ll always be my little boy.”

Lane kissed her on his cheek and replied, “Okay, Mommy.” I looked over at my father. He smiled at me
and slightly nodded his head.

Rodney and Curtis arrived about a half hour after Lane and I had finished doing the dishes. They sat at the
counter and hungrily devoured what remained of the meat loaf.

Rodney asked me, “How’s school going?”

I briefly told him I was doing all right in my classes. He wanted to know a little more about the drama
class. I told him I liked it; and then Lane began to excitedly tell him about singing with Lorenzo. He
occasionally laughed at Lane’s enthusiasm. Curtis, however, not once seemed to pay any attention to what
was being said.

Rodney then asked, “Do you know anything about physics?”

“A little,” I responded. It wasn’t my favorite subject, but I did manage to make average grades.

“It’s busting my ass,” replied Rodney. “Do you think you could maybe tutor me?”

I asked, “Don’t they have an after-school tutor program for athletes?”

Rodney glanced over at Curtis. “Yeah, they do,” he responded, “but Coach teaches it.” He laughed slightly,
“You sat in on his English class. We don’t get much done.” I looked over at Curtis when he grunted.

“I really need the help, Casey,” pleaded Rodney. “If I fail the class, I won’t be eligible to play baseball.”

I replied, “I guess I can help you. I have Snowden first period.”

“Great,” said Rodney. “I have him third.” He looked over at Curtis. “Maybe Casey can help you.”

Curtis gave him an angry look. “Why?”

Rodney replied, “You’re failing three classes right now. About the only ones   you’re passing is Coach’s.”

Curtis pushed himself away from the counter and stood. “I don’t need any help,” he insisted as he glanced
angrily at me. He then stormed out of the kitchen.

Lane giggled when Rodney muttered, “What a douche. He’ll be singing the blues in a few weeks when he’s
not eligible to take the field.”

“Yeah,” giggled Lane. “What a douche.” When Rodney left the kitchen, Lane asked me, “What’s a douche?”

I tousled his hair and replied, “You don’t want to know.”

School the next day was routine until third period. Students began to gather in small groups, and I could
tell they were gossiping about something. I also felt that I might be involved because they would look at
me and point.

I found out when I went to lunch, and Rodney was waiting for me outside the cafeteria doors. Without
saying anything, he grabbed my arm and pulled me down the hall to an empty stairwell.

He asked angrily, “Why didn’t you tell me someone trashed your locker?”

“What?” Since my books had been replaced, I had almost forgotten about it. “Why?”

He looked around to make sure no one was nearby. “They busted Mike this morning. He’s been suspended
ten days.”


“That’s the rumor,” continued Rodney. “The guys on the team are really upset.”

“How do they know it was him?”

“So it’s true?” asked Rodney. “He did trash your locker?”

“I don’t know,” I said. “My locker got trashed last week, but I didn’t tell   them who did it.” I looked
Rodney in the eyes and answered truthfully, “I really don’t know who did it. I told Snyder that.”

Rodney looked around again. He then said, “What I’ve heard is they caught him on a surveillance camera
doing it. Snyder called his parents. They had a disciplinary hearing, and Mike’s been suspended for ten

“I know he’s your friend,” I said, “but don’t you think he kind of deserves it?”

I was surprised when Rodney said angrily, “He’s an asshole. They should have expelled him.” He looked
around again. “I just wanted you to know. If anyone gives you any shit or anything, you come get me.

I nodded and replied, “Okay. But I don’t see why anyone would get mad at me.”

“Some of the guys on the team may think you ratted him out,” warned Rodney. “I’ll let them know you had
nothing to do with it.” He looked at me again and said, “I mean it, Casey. If anyone fucks with you, let me

“Okay, thanks,” I replied as he hurried off down the hallway to the cafeteria.

During fifth period, I was summoned to the office. Another student entered the room and handed my
Spanish teacher, Mr. Vega, a note. He called me to his desk, and informed me to report to Mr. Snyder’s

When I entered, Snyder was sitting at his desk, and the female officer who had taken my report was
standing at the door waiting for me. “Have a seat,” ordered Snyder as he pointed to a chair in front of his

I nodded my head when he asked, “I guess by now you’ve heard most of the rumors? Do you know why
Mike McConnell would do something like this?”

Even though Rodney had told me why they knew Mike did it, I still asked, “How do you know it was Mike?”

Snyder nodded to the officer, and she placed a laptop computer on the desk. She hit a button, and I
watched a grainy video of a school hallway. Seconds later, a student entered from the right and
approached a locker. Even though the quality of the video was poor, it was obvious the person was Mike. I
watched as he took what looked like a large screwdriver and pried my locker open. For the next minute, he
proceeded to reach into my locker and shred my books and papers. When he finished, he slammed my
locker and hurried away.

“I’m going to ask you again,” said Mr. Snyder. “Do you have any idea why he would do this?”

I asked challengingly, “What did he say?”

“He’s not speaking,” replied the principal. “Right now he’s been suspended for ten days.”

I responded, “I don’t know.”

He looked me in the face. “Why didn’t you tell me he’s the one who you fought with?”

I shrugged my shoulder. “What good would it have done? It would have been his word against mine. And
since I’m the new guy around here, you would have believed him.”

Snyder shook his head sadly and looked up at the officer. “I don’t run that kind of school,” he stated. “If
you had told me, then I would have done a fair investigation.” He looked at the frozen image on the laptop
screen. “Maybe this could have been prevented.”

I asked, “So what happens now?”

“Mike is suspended for ten days,” he informed me. “I would like to go for an expulsion, but I need you to
testify against him. I need to know why you got into a fight with him. I can expel him if this is a malicious
and intentional act. Right now, all I can do is suspend him for vandalism.”

I sat back and said defiantly, “I don’t know nothing.”

Snyder shook his head and said, “I knew you wouldn’t cooperate. I can’t help you if you won’t let me.”

“The damage is done,” I said. “Mike obviously had some problems with me.”

“Obviously,” replied the principal. He took out a piece of paper and wrote me a pass to class. “We’re here
to protect you, Casey,” he said as he looked up at the officer. “My door is always open if you need me.”

I stood, took the paper and said, “Thank you.” I then walked back to my fifth period class.

By the time I got to seventh period, Shade and Megan had already heard the rumors. “I had a feeling he
did it,” said Shade.

Megan asked, “Why did he do it? I’ve known Mike for years, and he doesn’t seem like the kind of boy who
would do something like that.”

“I dunno,” I replied. I didn’t want to tell them about Mike’s advances. I hadn’t come out to them yet, and I
felt that talking about Mike’s sexuality might make them suspect that I was gay, too.”

Even though I was beginning to believe that Shade was gay, I didn’t want to endanger the friendship we
were building. I knew that Megan wouldn’t care. She seemed like the kind of person who would accept
anyone. I was also afraid that if Shade wasn’t gay, then he would begin to feel uncomfortable around me.
However, I was developing strong feelings for him, and I wasn’t sure I would be able to suppress them
much longer.

I asked, “Don’t we have a play to perform in a few weeks?” I was attempting to divert their attention.
Megan said she had things to do, and she hurried away.

“I have a few ideas,” remarked Shade. “I want to run them by you.”

I followed him backstage, and he went over to his makeshift desk and opened his folder. “See,” he said as
he pointed to some elaborate drawings of a mountain scene. “What do you think of these?”

I studied them for a minute. “Wow,” I replied. “These are fantastic.” After closer examination, I pointed to
a chalet situated on a distant mountain. “What date does the play take place?”

“In the 1930’s,” he replied with a puzzled look on his face.

“This looks too modern,” I replied. “Shouldn’t it look a little rustic?”

He looked at the chalet more closely. “I think you’re right,” he replied. “I need to go to the library and do a
little more research.” He smiled and said appreciatively, “Thanks, Casey. You’re going to be a good

I responded, “Thanks.” My face began to redden as I stared into his eyes a little longer than I probably
should have.

We spent the rest of the period walking around onstage. Shade held up the drawing and explained how the
set should look after we finished. I was impressed by his enthusiasm and confidence.

“Do you have the help to do this?” I asked. “It sounds like it’s going to take a lot of work to put this

He asked with a smile, “Can you hammer a nail?”

“Of course,” I replied.

“Then we’re set,” he laughed as he walked away. “And don’t plan to do anything after school for the next


“You’ll be spending it with me,” he laughed and added, “Mr. Assistant Stage Manager.”

Shade accompanied me to my locker after school. Once again, he had volunteered to drive Lane and me
home. I wasn’t sure if he was going to take us by his mother’s diner again. I knew if he didn’t, Lane would
be disappointed.

On the way to meet Lane, someone approached from behind and grabbed my arm. When I turned, it was
Coach Wentworth. He asked nervously, “Can I see you for a minute?” He glanced quickly over at Shade.

“I gotta pick up Lane,” I insisted as I pulled away from his grip.

“Please Casey?” he asked pleadingly. “I need to talk to you.”

Shade said, “Casey, I can go get Lane.”

Coach smiled at him and responded, “Thanks.” He looked back at me. “I really need to talk to you, Casey.”

After our confrontation in my room, I didn’t want to talk to him. I just assumed he was going to make
more excuses for Mike. He was probably going to try to talk me into asking Snyder not to suspend him.    
“I don’t think there’s anything to talk about.”

He pleaded, “Please, Casey? This is important to me.”

I looked over at Shade to see what he thought I should do. He nodded and said, “Maybe you should.”

I sighed and asked, “Can you take Lane home?”

“Sure,” he nodded. “You want me to come back and get you?”

“No,” interrupted Coach. “I’ll see that he gets home safely.”

Shade waited for me to respond. He was being protective, and he didn’t want to leave me without knowing
that I was safe. I glanced at Coach and replied, “I’ll be okay. Just don’t let Lane con you into more pie and
ice cream.” He smiled, nodded his head and walked away.

I turned to Coach and asked rudely, “What do you want? Are you going to try to talk me into not having
Mike suspended? If you are, I don’t have anything to do with that.”

He shook his head and replied, “Trust me, Casey, that is not my intention.” He looked down the hall before
continuing, “Let’s go to my office. We can talk more privately there.”

I wasn’t sure I wanted to go with him. In a way, I felt I might be getting set up. Perhaps, he was taking
me to the gym to abandon me, and then let the members of the baseball team seek revenge for Mike’s

“I don’t want to go to the gym,” I insisted emphatically. “Anywhere but the gym.”

He nodded as if he understood my fears. “Okay,” he said. “How about we go to Bob Evan’s for a bite to
eat?” He smiled slightly, “I missed lunch, and I’m starving.” I nodded and followed him outside to his car.

He didn’t say anything on the way to the restaurant. Occasionally, he would look over at me, but I would
turn and stare out the window. I still wasn’t sure what his motive was for getting me alone. I felt better
knowing we would be in a public place.

There were few people inside the restaurant when we arrived. Coach scanned it carefully. I think he was
afraid that other students might be there to congregate after school. He pointed to a booth in the back that
seemed like we would be out of view if others did come in.

An elderly waitress approached the table to take our order. Coach said, “Have anything you want, Casey.
My treat.” He ordered a hamburger platter and an iced tea. He seemed disappointed when all I asked for
was a glass of water.

He briefly stared across the table at me. “I know what you think of me,” Casey,” he began, “but you couldn’
t be any further from the truth.” I took a sip of water and grunted slightly.

“To begin with,” he said, “I’m not here to try and talk you into saving Mike’s ass.” His tone became angrier.
“He got exactly what he deserves.”

His frank remark surprised me. I asked, “Then why are we here?”

He stated, “You’ve got this whole situation wrong.”

“What do you mean?”

“That little argument we had in your room the other night,” he said. I nodded my head, but said nothing.

“Okay,” he sighed as he realized he was getting nowhere with me. I continued to glare at him. I still wasn’t
sure what his motive was for wanting to talk to me.

“I’m a baseball coach,” he continued, “but I’m also a surrogate father, big brother, nurse, nanny,
psychologist and more often than not, just a shoulder to cry on for my team.”

I stared at him and replied, “Okay.”

He sighed again and shook his head. “When I began coaching, I wanted to be just more than a coach. I’ve
played a lot of sports growing up, and I had some really mean coaches. All they thought about was
winning, and nothing more.

“I wanted to see my team as more than just winners. I wanted them to grow up to be strong men.”

I laughed and responded, “I don’t think you’re doing a very good job. Mike and Curtis are assholes.”

He shook his head sadly and replied, “I can’t save them all.”

“So what happens to Mike now?”

“He’s been kicked off the team,” replied Wentworth as he shook. He then looked around to make sure no
one was listening and then said softly, “Mike has a lot of issues. I’ve known his family for years. When he
came out a few years ago, it was really difficult for him.”

“It doesn’t seem to bother him,” I replied. “Everyone seems to accept it.”

“He’s an athlete, Casey,” stated Wentworth. “Team sports and being gay don’t mix. Everyone says they
are okay with it, but deep down inside, athletes still have a hard time accepting it.”

“Yeah, I know,” I replied.

He continued, “At first Mike took a lot of heat from his teammates. Some  wouldn’t even undress or shower
in front of him. There’s a few that still don’t.   I’ve tried hard to make it easier for him, but there is still a
lot that goes on behind my back.”

I sneered and said, “There’s a LOT that goes on behind your back.” I was recalling the fight I had with Mike.

Coach shook his head. “Listen, Casey,” he said. “I know you think I was covering for Mike, but I wasn’t. I
was still in the process of trying to figure out what happened. I was getting conflicting reports. Some of the
guys said you instigated it when you charged Mike. Since he’s been suspended from the team, some of the
guys have come forward and told me what really happened.” He reached across the table and gripped my
arm. “I’m sorry,” he said as I pulled my arm away. “And I’m sorry for calling you a fucker the other night.
I was way out of bounds.”

Just then, the waitress brought the Coach’s meal to the table. I shook my head when he asked me if I
wanted to order anything. As he ate, I finally decided to ask him a question that had been bugging me
since my first day at school.

“Can I ask you a question?”

“Yeah, sure,” he replied as he put down his fork. “What is it?”

“I really don’t understand why you wanted me on your team? I told you I had no interest in playing
baseball, but yet you insisted I play.” I laughed nervously and added, “I thought you were stalking me.”

He smiled and said, “You should have seen you that first time you came to the school. You looked like a
wet little puppy that someone had thrown out of a car and left on the side of the road.”

I frowned and said, “What?”

“You were coming down the hall with your head down and your shoulders drooped. You looked like you
were carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders. I thought to myself, ‘If anyone needs a friend,
this guy does.’”

I asked, “Did I really look that bad?”

“Yeah, you did,” he smiled. “After talking to your father, I discovered what you were going through. When
I came into your room, I really did want to help you.”

I hung my head and replied, “Sorry.” I now realized that in my anger, I had jumped to a lot of
assumptions. At the time I felt I was right, but I guess I should have given Coach a chance to explain
things before rushing out of the room.

He said, “You have nothing to be sorry for. Things just took a turn for the worse. I was worried something
like this would happen when I saw Mike take an interest in you. I think he thought you were gay, and he
saw it as his chance to get another gay guy on the team. I think he thought it might make it easier for him,
too. I tried to warn you, but I couldn’t just come out and say it. If you were straight, then you would let
him know. I really thought at first that was what the fight was about.”

“In a way it was,” I laughed slightly.

He gave me a puzzled look and said, “Now I’m confused. I thought the fight was because he got a little too
rough playing basketball.”

I studied Coach’s face for a few seconds. He seemed genuinely concerned about me. I had to make a
decision how much I wanted to tell him. Finally, I said, “Mike was interested in me,” I said, “and I was
interested in him.” I thought Coach would be surprised, but he just nodded and listened.

“But you know Lane, don’t you?” He nodded his head. “Mike treated him like shit, and I couldn’t let that
happen. He became a real asshole about it.”

“So that is why you got into a fight?”

I laughed, “It wasn’t exactly a fight, but yeah. I couldn’t just let him keep treating Lane the way he was.”

“Lane means a lot to you, doesn’t he?”

“Yeah,” I replied as tears welled up in my eyes. “I’d die for him if I had to.”

Coach smiled and said, “I still want you on my baseball team, Casey. You’re a man of real character.”

I laughed. “Coach, I hate baseball. Besides, I’m taking drama now, and I’m starting to enjoy it.”

“I can tell,” he said. “I’ve seen you in the halls walking with Shade. You seem a lot happier.” He laughed
and added, “You’re not walking with the world on your shoulders anymore.”

The waitress returned and gave Coach the check. After paying for it with a credit card, he stood and said,

“Yeah,” I responded as I started walking down the aisle. I didn’t move away when Coach put his hand on
my back.

He said, “I’m glad we had this little talk.”

“Me, too,” I replied.

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