Apple of Her Eye
Chapter 1
It all started out so ordinary. The two of us were just sitting on his bed, listening to some
music coming from his stereo on the book shelf. He had it up kind of loud, and his mother
had hollered up to us several times to “turn that damn music down!” We would look at
each other and giggle. We would play it softly for several minutes, and before long it was
blasting away again. Hey, we’re only 16, like we’re not going to play our music loud. I
swear, sometimes I think parents forget what it was like to be teenagers. I guess they went
from childhood straight to adulthood.

We were sitting on the bed, kicking back and listening to music when our legs began to
touch lightly. I know Shaun didn’t think anything of it, but I sure did. I have had the hots
for Shaun for as long as I could remember. We’ve best friends for ages. We met in the fifth
grade, and six years later we are still the best of friends. Who wouldn’t love Shaun? He has
everything going for him: looks, intelligence and a personality that would make anyone take
notice of him.

Again, we touched legs, and I intentionally let the contact last a little longer. I could feel my
dick start to tent in my tight shorts. We had done this before, but my rampant teen
hormones had never kicked in like they were tonight. I looked briefly at him, letting my  
gaze last a little longer. I looked at his light brown hair curling up slightly around his neck
and flowing gently onto his forehead. I had been lost in those blue eyes a million times, but
I never let Shaun see the desire in my eyes. Tonight, however, was different. Tonight, I
wanted Shaun. I wanted his strong, long body lying on mine, kissing me passionately while
our hard cocks grind sensuously into each other. I wanted to taste him and take his hard
cock into my mouth. God, what was I thinking! I couldn’t do this. Shaun was straight, and I
was not.

As we sat and listened to the music, I began to regret the thoughts I was having. Shaun is
my best friend. I couldn’t possibly be in love with my best friend. After all these years, I
was able to put my feelings into the back of my mind, never letting them surface. Sure, I let
them escape when I was alone in my room at night, and my dick would get hard begging
for relief. Thoughts of Shaun’s hard, muscular body would appear in my mind. I could see
him changing into his swimming suit when we were at the pool. He would always turn his
back to me, but occasionally he would turn just enough for me to get a quick glimpse of his
soft cock lying softly upon two large balls. And then there was that ass! That vision would
get me through hundreds of jack-off sessions. He would quickly slip on his suit, turn to me
and say, “Let’s move it, Gary.” Then he’d walk away, never aware that my eyes were frozen
to that wonderful bubble butt ass of his. I’d go home at night and beat off twice with that
vision in my mind.

I just couldn’t take it anymore. We were rubbing legs, my dick was hard and all I could
think of was leaning over and kissing those red lips on his beautiful face. Shaun was
beautiful. All the girls knew it. He had a steady stream of girlfriends, never settling on just
one. “Why have a steady girlfriend, when I can be a player?” he would always say. He dated
a lot, but he would never tell me how far he would go with a girl. I would tease and hint
about it, but he would just say he had a good time. I guess it was probably best that way.
The thought of him grinding his masculine frame onto some girl’s smaller body was not a
thought I wanted to have. It was probably better that I didn’t know. I just assumed he
wasn’t a virgin like me and left it at that.

I looked over at him once more, and he looked back. For some reason, I could not pry my
gaze from his blue eyes. I looked deeply into them, trying to find something, anything, that
would tell me he felt something for me.

All I got was, “Jesus, Gary, what’s wrong with you? You’re looking at me like you’re a fag or
something!” Pulling his leg from mine, he jumped away from me on the bed.

Suddenly I came back to reality, realizing that I had been staring at my best friend and
doing just what he said I was doing, acting like a fag. Then his eyes looked down, and he
saw the bulge protruding from my tented shorts. His eyes came back up to meet mine, and
I will never forget the look I saw in them. Disgust. That’s the only word that would even
come close to what I saw in those beautiful blue eyes. Only now they weren’t beautiful.
They were harsh and cold as they looked at me. Without a word, I got up from his bed, put
on my shoes and left his room. I rushed down the stairs and ran all the way home. By the
time I reached my front door, tears were streaming down my face and my heart was
pounding. I knew that he now knew, and I don’t know if I can face him again.

I opened the door and walked into the living room trying desperately to avoid my mother. I
knew my face was tear-stained, and I didn’t want her to ask me why I had been crying. No
such luck.

“Gary, come here a minute,” ordered my mother from the couch. She had been reading,
and she put down her book when she noticed my face.

“What’s wrong, dear? Why have you been crying?” I just stood there frozen like a deer
caught in the headlights of an oncoming car. After a few long seconds I finally spoke.

“It’s nothing. I think I may be catching a cold,” I lied. She knew I was lying. I hated doing
that. I loved my mother and never intentionally lied to her. She was the only thing I had.  
My father left us years ago. I don’t even remember him. When I would ask about him, she
would say that he was a good man, but that they just couldn’t make it work. When I would
try to delve a little deeper, I would just get “the look.” You know that look; the one only a
mother can give her child. The one that means stop doing what you are doing. In this case,
asking too many questions.

On more than one occasion I had thought about telling her that I was gay, but I always
seemed to back down. I didn’t think she would react too badly. She was a teacher, and I
am sure she had many gay and lesbian students in her class over the years. So, I didn’t
think she would kick me out of the house or resort to any other drastic action. I guess I
just didn’t want to see the look of disappointment in her eyes. She had always said that I
was the apple of her eye. I could not bear to think that I could be anything less than what
she wanted. I was her only child. I was to carry on the family name, give her grandchildren
and make her life complete, as she once told me.

“Anything you want to talk about?” she asked me with concern in her voice. I knew she
wouldn’t press me for more. She always gave me my space, and she would never pressure
me into talking if I didn’t want to.

“No, Mom, I’m just going to bed. Okay?” I said without making my voice tremble too much.

“All right, Honey. I’ll check in on you later. If you ever want to talk, I have a good ear.    
That’s part of a mother’s job, you know.”

“Thanks, Mom. I know. Love you.” I couldn’t hold it in any more. I quickly turned and
hurried to my room while the tears began to flow once again. I’d had bad feelings before,
but this night was one of the worse I had ever experienced. Everything I thought I had
under control was collapsing around me. I’d lost Shaun as my best friend, and I knew that
soon I would have to disappoint the one person I didn’t want to hurt, my mother. I fell
down on my bed, buried my face into my pillow and cried myself to sleep.

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